I don’t know if I’ve written about this before, but even if I have I’m doing it again because its such a prominent thing for me at the moment. I don’t give a fuck. About anything. I don’t care about my grades, I don’t care about my health, I don’t care about my cutting. IContinue reading “A State of Mind”
Tag Archives: Mental Health
Feeling Relatable
New video out on my channel now! So, todays post will be another song I love to death and back again. As soon as this song came out I knew I had to make a post on it, because it’s so relatable to me. The song is Billie Eilish’s new song, ‘Everything I Wanted.’ Now,Continue reading “Feeling Relatable”
The Surprise of Kindness
Before I start this post, I’d just like to say that I’ve started a non-profit YouTube channel for hopefully helping save the environment. If you could check it out and maybe subscribe that would be amazing, I have two videos on there already: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC-g2DXCZtJyce9eVzUlkGKw. Now onto the post. This is always a warming story forContinue reading “The Surprise of Kindness”
Paranoia
Over the past couple weeks, my paranoia became a big part of my life again. Two weeks ago, my former best friend and I rekindled our dying friendship. We’re now good friends again. And that’s where Sir Paranoia comes into full-blown, bloody action. Every time I talk to this friend, my mind plays tricks onContinue reading “Paranoia”
Pointlessness
I’d say 6/7 days a week I think about this topic. Pointlessness. A bookshelf has a point – to hold books. A pencil has a point, quite literally and also to write. But I’m not a bookshelf or a pencil, and for the simple reason that they both have a point to existence, I envyContinue reading “Pointlessness”
Things Worth Living For
Last Saturday, I came close to ending my life. I was advised by a friend (the same friend described here)that I should write a list of all the things that makes my life worth living. If you are in a similar mindset, I would highly recommend this. It won’t work for everyone, but if IContinue reading “Things Worth Living For”
Arbitrary Life Happenings
So this is going to be another weird post. Prepare to laugh at me. I got my hair cut today. I really really like getting my hair cut. I just love the feeling of the cold metal touching the skin just above my ear. Told you it was going to be weird, but don’t pretendContinue reading “Arbitrary Life Happenings”
Happy, Happy, Happy
I really don’t understand my brain. How can I go from the lowest point of my life (self-deprecation, self harm etc, read my posts titled Going Down and Nothing Really Matters)to where I am now, which is…almost HAPPY. Now I say that with a grain of salt. I don’t think I’ve been truly happy consistentlyContinue reading “Happy, Happy, Happy”
My Desire for, and Fear of, Attention
This post is going to show a negative aspect of my character. I’m not very proud of myself for feeling these emotions, but I like to be real and honest, and writing all this done is good for me. So, attention. I love attention. No, I hate attention. No, I love it. I think IContinue reading “My Desire for, and Fear of, Attention”
Controlling my Narrative
I apologise for the past couple of posts. I’ve been in probably the darkest part of my life so far for the last week or so, but for some reason I felt a lot better today. Thank you to everyone who reached out to me to offer me words of encouragement or advice. They wereContinue reading “Controlling my Narrative”