Feeling Relatable

New video out on my channel now! So, todays post will be another song I love to death and back again. As soon as this song came out I knew I had to make a post on it, because it’s so relatable to me. The song is Billie Eilish’s new song, ‘Everything I Wanted.’ Now,

Pointlessness

I’d say 6/7 days a week I think about this topic. Pointlessness. A bookshelf has a point – to hold books. A pencil has a point, quite literally and also to write. But I’m not a bookshelf or a pencil, and for the simple reason that they both have a point to existence, I envy

Caleb LeBlanc

I only found out about this story recently, and it really saddened me. So there’s this YouTube channel called ‘Bratayley’ and it consists of a family of 2 girls and their mum (I don’t know about the dad). This channel has been going for a LONG time. The first video was posted in early 2011

From Low to High

The past week has been a bit of a rollercoaster. I went from seriously wanting to end my life, to now being in a pretty good mindset. Here’s how my week went by. Last Saturday: I was feeling disgusted by myself, and also felt very lonely. Aswell as that, I was having one of my

Things Worth Living For

Last Saturday, I came close to ending my life. I was advised by a friend (the same friend described here)that I should write a list of all the things that makes my life worth living. If you are in a similar mindset, I would highly recommend this. It won’t work for everyone, but if I

I’m A Weird Sort Of Shy

Ok, so you may or may not know that my blog ‘title’ includes the word shy. Most people, if they’re shy, are shy in every aspect of their life. Not me. I’m really weird. I don’t get shy talking in front of crowds, or while I’m playing sports, or when talking to strangers. I can’t

Arbitrary Life Happenings

So this is going to be another weird post. Prepare to laugh at me. I got my hair cut today. I really really like getting my hair cut. I just love the feeling of the cold metal touching the skin just above my ear. Told you it was going to be weird, but don’t pretend

Happy, Happy, Happy

I really don’t understand my brain. How can I go from the lowest point of my life (self-deprecation, self harm etc, read my posts titled Going Down and Nothing Really Matters)to where I am now, which is…almost HAPPY. Now I say that with a grain of salt. I don’t think I’ve been truly happy consistently

Nothing Really Matters

I’m so lost It’s as if everything in my life isn’t really happening to me. I’m watching this person’s life unfolding from a disconnected, separated place. When my brain takes me to thoughts of sadness, they’re not my thoughts. When my brain takes me to thoughts of harm, they’re not my thoughts. When my brain