Seasonal Sadness?

I’ve never been diagnosed with depression or seasonal depression, or anything really. But I do feel like I tend to get sad at certain points of the year, reoccurringly. And those points are winter months. The winter for me is the worst part of the year. It’s cold, wet, dark and just generally miserable. IContinue reading “Seasonal Sadness?”

Things Worth Living For

Last Saturday, I came close to ending my life. I was advised by a friend (the same friend described here)that I should write a list of all the things that makes my life worth living. If you are in a similar mindset, I would highly recommend this. It won’t work for everyone, but if IContinue reading “Things Worth Living For”

Internal Monologue

I don’t know if this is something that a lot of people have, but it is definitely my most worrying quality (after self-harm maybe). My internal monologue. I have a voice in my brain that speaks to me constantly, making me worried about the past, worried about the present and worried about the future. ThisContinue reading “Internal Monologue”

My Desire for, and Fear of, Attention

This post is going to show a negative aspect of my character. I’m not very proud of myself for feeling these emotions, but I like to be real and honest, and writing all this done is good for me. So, attention. I love attention. No, I hate attention. No, I love it. I think IContinue reading “My Desire for, and Fear of, Attention”

Nothing Really Matters

I’m so lost It’s as if everything in my life isn’t really happening to me. I’m watching this person’s life unfolding from a disconnected, separated place. When my brain takes me to thoughts of sadness, they’re not my thoughts. When my brain takes me to thoughts of harm, they’re not my thoughts. When my brainContinue reading “Nothing Really Matters”

Depression?

I really don’t like using the word ‘depressed’, and I tense up inside when others use it to describe things that really aren’t depressing. “That cartoon where the chicken died was so DEPRESSING!” No. That cartoon was sad. There’s a difference. I also don’t like using it to describe myself. The definition of depression isContinue reading “Depression?”

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