My First Milestone!?

This was never a post I thought I’d be writing this early in my blogging career…if you can call it that? I have reached 50 followers…that’s absolutely insane, for someone who has repeatedly (ashamedly)tried to start a YouTube channel. The fact that 50 different people thought my content was good enough to warrant a follow

I’m A Weird Sort Of Shy

Ok, so you may or may not know that my blog ‘title’ includes the word shy. Most people, if they’re shy, are shy in every aspect of their life. Not me. I’m really weird. I don’t get shy talking in front of crowds, or while I’m playing sports, or when talking to strangers. I can’t

Songs I Love No. 2

I couldn’t think of anything to write today, so here’s another fave song of mine. “Be Alright” by Dean Lewis. I only found this song recently when watching a “Sad Songs Compilation” during one of my dark moods, but I instantly fell in love with Lewis’s just pure Britishness. Too many Brits sound like Americans,

Internal Monologue

I don’t know if this is something that a lot of people have, but it is definitely my most worrying quality (after self-harm maybe). My internal monologue. I have a voice in my brain that speaks to me constantly, making me worried about the past, worried about the present and worried about the future. This

Arbitrary Life Happenings

So this is going to be another weird post. Prepare to laugh at me. I got my hair cut today. I really really like getting my hair cut. I just love the feeling of the cold metal touching the skin just above my ear. Told you it was going to be weird, but don’t pretend

Other People’s Sadness

This is a bit of a weird one… So, a few days weeks ago, one of my classmates was having a shitty day stressing about A-Levels and University applications. Not abnormal. Year 13 is a stress fest. Anyway, she was having a bit of a breakdown, and I suddenly started feeling the sadness she was

Songs I Love No. 1

This may become a regular post on my blog, I’m not sure. I just want to share songs that I absolutely love, and especially that mean a lot to me. This song has meant a lot to me very recently in my bout of sadness. One More Light by Linkin Park. It’s such a sad

Happy, Happy, Happy

I really don’t understand my brain. How can I go from the lowest point of my life (self-deprecation, self harm etc, read my posts titled Going Down and Nothing Really Matters)to where I am now, which is…almost HAPPY. Now I say that with a grain of salt. I don’t think I’ve been truly happy consistently

My Desire for, and Fear of, Attention

This post is going to show a negative aspect of my character. I’m not very proud of myself for feeling these emotions, but I like to be real and honest, and writing all this done is good for me. So, attention. I love attention. No, I hate attention. No, I love it. I think I

Controlling my Narrative

I apologise for the past couple of posts. I’ve been in probably the darkest part of my life so far for the last week or so, but for some reason I felt a lot better today. Thank you to everyone who reached out to me to offer me words of encouragement or advice. They were