This is one of my more worrying and frankly irritating traits.
I hate to be disliked. I cannot bear the thought of someone disliking me, and so I will do all I can to make them like me again – or I refrain from talking to them, in an attempt to not annoy them further.
However, this feeling does have levels to it. For instance, if someone I’m not that close to sends signals that they aren’t particularly fond of me, it will affect me, but not NEARLY as much as if it’s someone closer to me.
I get that most people want to be liked by the people close to them, but it feels different with me. It’s like this overwhelming urge to do anything at all to change their feelings towards me.
Maybe it stems from my innate loneliness, and my fear of being left all alone, with no one to talk to. Or maybe I’m just the clingy type. Whatever the reason, it’s bloody annoying.